Pay bills and Die

I feel like I've been very adult for most of my life. Coping mechanisms for my insecurities surrounded by people my own age. I feel like my life is a background character in a very interesting film, I am also a people watcher so I suck as a movie extra. I don't think I'm specifically special or have a skill that is solely mine, although I do feel more like if a NPC in a game became self-aware and working through that process probably in desperate need of a therapist.

Tuesday, September 10, 2019

Empathy Fatigue

I feel like I am floating on my back in molasses. I want to turn over and swim away but if I do, I can't breathe, I have a greater chance of causing my own demise. As I see if I have two options:

1: Float and hope eventually I get close enough to the edge to get out. hopefully not too slowly.

2. Turn over. Risk everything. Possibly die faster.

Let's be honest, death is the goal at the end of life, right?